i dont understand why i cant just be happy. or have things go right for me. i dont even know what to say. im so upset. my mom told me today that she cant take care of me anymore. she cant be my mom anymore. i love my mom so much, even if shes a crazybitch. those words just ripped me to pieces. my home life is just terrible. i get told once a week to “take my birth control so i can fuck my “boyfriend” while hes fucking everyone else.” who says shit like that. all i come home to is drinking. im alone. and now me and my.. (i dont even know what to call him anymore) have fallen apart. one of the only things that made me happy and now thats gone too. i dont even know what happened.. my grades are terrible. im probably going to fail my sols. i hate school cause it just fucks up everything. i dont know what to do anymore. i can be so happy sometimes and so upset. im not depressed or any of that weird shit. im just so on and off. i just want everything to be okay again.